Frustrated

So Lily had her two day check at the doctor's office today. We had a couple concerns because she hadn't had a bowel movement since we left the hospital. When we had her weighed she had lost 15% of her body weight which concerned the pediatrician. She suggested we go see the lactation consultant.

Now, don't get me wrong, most of the staff at the hospital has been very helpful and I am a new mother and still learning. But my milk came in early this morning and Lily had been feeding a lot better and for longer periods of time. The consultant told us not to be too concerned since she is very alert, has a good strong cry and moves around a lot. She was confident that she would put on the weight. However, she put me on a schedule to feed Lily every two hours, even if I had to wake her up to feed her.

When we got home Lily was ready to eat. She had two great feedings and then dozed off for awhile. Wanting to follow directions, when the two hour mark hit, I woke her up to feed her. She was not really that hungry. But I kept trying because that's what the consultant said to do. She fed for about five minutes and was ready to sleep again. I was worried but let her sleep. Two hours later, I tried again. Nope not ready.

Now I am so frustrated. Before, I just waited until she was ready to eat, making her "I'm hungry" noises and crying. That seemed to work just fine. Why should I force her to feed? Why should I wake her up when I know she will let me know what she wants? Now I am fearful that she won't get enough to eat, I have thrown her schedule off whack and when we go back in on Monday, they are going to wonder why I didn't force 20 minutes on each breast every two hours.

I want to do what's best for Lily, I want her to grow and be healthy. She has passed everything else with flying colors. I will see how the weekend goes, and I hope she eats more. But who should you listen to? The three different people who told me how to feed or my own gut?